I had the same nightmare again, where I threw something at her out of anger.
I am really, really worried it might happen one day, and make things totally not salvage-able. And it might hint that I am starting to bear hate towards her subconsciously, but why...
I am quite sure I still care about her... so it would be weird that I hate her.
And I really don't hope the prediction comes true. The prediction that I will get over it in a year. Because I have already made it clear to myself.
That Amanda will be the last exception I make. After that, I will never allow myself to fall in love ever again.